That extra buzz

Then there was the time, we were in bed and he presented me with the news he had been out with the boys at lunchtime and bought a jar of amyl nitrate, he wanted us to use it during sex, right then.

He knew I thought all kinds of drugs were stupid and scummy. In previous conversations I had said I thought sex was brilliant enough without drugs, I said it again, there were plenty of things you could do (and we did) which would give a natural buzz but he got angry and moody, bullied me and I gave in, but he sniffed it ...or drank it? I can't remember, and started to tell me how great it felt, it made me feel cheap and dirty so I changed my mind, and poured it down the sink, he got more angry, I had wasted his feeling and wasted the bottle. I am sure he always felt I was at fault.
It was Christmas, he bought me a silver compact and a body stocking from Ann Summers, another purchase whilst out with the boys, he was a man of 47!