Premonition

Five years ago, I was walking across a carpark, towards my employers training accommodation building. Suddenly, my head was filled with a scene, I was part of it. I was in front of the reception desk of the training school, John the caretaker was behind the desk and he said 'What are you doing here, we expected you yesterday'. The scene disappeared. I carried on walking into the Training school, wondering about my booking, I walked through the door and my 'premonition' played itself out. It was strange. The next day I checked whether subconsciously I had seen something on an email, but all emails were for the correct date, I checked again with John and he explained they had just filed my email in the wrong day.
The next day, I was walking in the same spot, at that time wondering what N would look like in a suit, my mind was again 'transported' to a scene, N was in front of me in a grey suit, it was our wedding, and he said 'Where's Alex's tie? I can't find Alex's tie'  then the scene disappeared. 
This made me believe we would, one day, be married, although I couldn't imagine N wanting to wear a grey suit. 
It was as if the premonition of the previous day was to give me belief

When we were preparing for our wedding, it was 9 months after my mum's funeral, I associated black suits with the funeral, so I asked N to consider another colour. He settled on a gorgeous grey suit. I did not want to engineer coincidence, so put Alex's tie together with his wedding stuff. A few days before the wedding, N was standing in the bedroom, looked at me and said  'Where's Alex's tie? I can't find Alex's tie' He seemed unaware of what he was saying.  

This is another reason, why I found it so difficult to give up on N, why give me a sign of the future if it wasn't 'meant to be'